Know exactly how you feel ZTH.
The last few months have been pretty surreal all round, from going into lockdown ahead of the official lockdown, due to family illness to today. . . . just all very weird. Watching the football has been an odd and frankly dislocated experience. Sure the nerves, the hopes etc were there come the game...but nowhere near the same as being there....not even close. In all honesty, If I'm brutally honest, I felt more engaged by the previous two Wembley appearences, simply because we were there ...it was a spectacle, we were part of it and could drink it all in....despite it not mattering anywhere near as much as this match did.
From the dithering over how to end the season to the ham-fisted way they finally decided, it started taking a lot of gloss off (for me) of what we had achieved to that point.
To be in 3rd. To be the form team in the division going into the final games. I felt a real sense of something building.
Maybe we would still have been in the playoffs, but the chances are we would be a team going into them at or near the top of our game and with packed houses cheering us all the way.
In another sense, I wasn;t sure I fully "believed" that we were within touching distance of the Championship.
And further to this....who knows what the future will hold for the professional game below the highest levels.
Right now, I am just glad to have a club to follow...and that club has brought a lot of joy in recent (pre-lockdown) time. The pain of losing that club would be infinitely more painful and harder to stomach that what we endured on Monday.